Another Random Tirade (Staying True to the Blog Name)
I have not written on here in ages. In fact, I have not really written anything in far too long.
I return to you with a myriad of random thoughts that I keep getting throughout the day; things I think should be heard by the general populace, but that don’t currently fill up an entire article-sized document in my brain.
#1: It’s not irrational to be afraid of the sea. I am a WALKING. MAMMAL. Everything there has a huge advantage over me. I’d call it self-preservation. Everything in the sea/ocean ADAPTED to be as perfect as possible for its environment. I cannot breathe underwater, they are all better swimmers, and krakens are real. Irrational fear. Right. You go take a dive in there, then, dipshit, I’ll happily breathe my oxygen above the surface of the sea.
#2: If you were stranded on an alien planet and had home life with you, would you bring it along/save it, or would you let it die so it doesn’t contaminate the alien biome?
#3: Thinking is not the esoteric domain of the philosopher. You should try it sometime.
#4: How did it become socially acceptable/conventional for people to ask something as private as “Do you like X? Do you have feelings for Y?” How is that anyone’s business but my own? The liberty at which morons seem to ask/assume/state (without real backing/evidence/a right to???) that you might be romantically inclined towards someone is truly quite baffling. What business is it of yours whom I might like? In fact, why am I being put in a position where I have to explain myself that I am not interested in relationships, haven’t been in ages, and probably won’t be for a while longer, especially considering the fact that so many of the same type of person exists? It’s not okay to ask if someone likes someone else. Stop talking about it.
The details of your relationships should be private, between you and your lover. Please stop normalising over-sharing details such as what you do together in bed, with your best mate. It’s not natural. You’re invading your partner’s privacy. Stop.
#5: How did we evolve for six million years, only to create a society where stupidity is praised, where one-dimensional ways of thinking are accepted — even encouraged — but anyone with a different approach to social interactions is shunned? Why is blindly accepting convention the morally justified thing to do?? It’s shocking how many people so eagerly and readily jump on the chance to follow the herd, do whatever everyone else is doing, instead of taking a step back to think for themselves for a moment. In truth, the more I think about this, about herd conformity, about how our world encourages you to turn your brain off and follow everyone else, the more I feel sick to my stomach.
#6: How much different would attractive qualities for different individuals be if the world lacked gender roles and beauty standards? Would people finally have an opinion of their own?
#7: How far are the things we say affected by external influences? Will we ever be self-aware enough to notice when our opinions and ideas are not our own?
#8: How have I not written anything in this long? I’m genuinely confused as to how I’ve managed to survive for such an extended period of time without something like this. Sure, there have been instances of short writing sessions, but I feel this need, a deep craving, a compelling desire to simply write, write, write.
#9: Time is relative to the observer. Don’t take that at face-value. Truly think about it. Take time to experience your mind being absolutely blown by such a brilliant, ingenious, daring concept.
#10: Physics, with its intricacies, remains beautiful; compelling; a passion of mine. Many of my professors have successfully decreased some of its appeal, but when I am reminded that it is the science that takes daily experiences and shines a light on them that reveals them to be of magical magnitude, I feel the fire twinkle back to life within me. Maybe soon enough, the flame will be a roaring blaze.
#11: Achieving balance between your favourite activities is probably the best way to go about daily life. You don’t need to do one thing or another for an entire day. In fact, try to accomplish multiple things in one day. Keep trying, keep doing it, keep going. Eventually, it’ll be natural to you, and you will be out of your emotional, mental and physical rut.
#12: I once again am baffled by the therapeutic effect of writing this. How have I been so addicted to self-destruction for as long as I have? Perhaps is the black and white prospect of the future… at least I can start to see some greys.
Remember that nothing is set in stone, and you can always change your mind. You can always do something new. Nothing is static. If the universe is expanding, and the stars we thought were fixed are now known to be constantly moving (not implying constant velocities, I am referring to the constancy of the fact that they are in motion), a human, one of the most flexible things I can think of, can certainly change at will.
#13: I fail to understand how one person can be so attached to their idea of their inability to change, how they allow themselves thousands upon thousands of excuses to remain as they are, never trying to improve upon themselves or fix their issues, even when help is offered. At least don’t argue back with utter nonsense if you have no real footing to stand on. Shut your mouth or admit you’re a coward.
#14: Never forget that you have time, and it’s okay to not be okay. Remember, as long as you recall your ability to be determined and passionate, as long as you summon the spark necessary to remind you to live life, rather than decay into stagnation, you will stand back up. Don’t be too harsh on yourself; find a proper balance between self-care and self-improvement.
#15: How can you write a physicist as a character and have them say to their kids that, unmetaphorically, the distance between you and the nearest galaxy is trillions and trillions of lightyears away, when you never established a timeline in which that is physically correct? Trust me, a physicist cannot physically (ha) bring themselves to say something so utterly inaccurate.
If the farthest reaches of the universe that we can currently observe (the measured visible universe across) lie at about 46.1 billion lightyears away (after all the calculations necessary have been performed) , and the universe — as far as we know — appears to be expanding at a pace of 6.5 lightyears every year, how can you be somewhere that is trillions upon trillions of lightyears away from Alpha Centauri? You never established a timeline in the FAR future where this is true, prior to this event, and you never put us in a new universe in which this holds true, since you used Earth, Alpha Centauri and The Milky Way. Sure, it’s a fictional universe, but if you’re going to portray a physicist accurately, or if you’re going to attempt to portray accurate physics about space, or spacetime, or literally everything in your world (how do you create a world without establishing its laws of physics when it’s heavily focused on science?), how do you justify writing such a terrible line? Sure, you could call it exaggeration, but if they were exaggerating, they would not have answered that when someone asked “What about not metaphorically?”.
#16: HISTORICAL. ACCURACY. PEOPLE. If you’re going to write historical fiction, do a better job of getting the facts right. Write all the bloody drama you want about princes and princesses and whatever else. Trust me, one of my hidden obsessions is royalty-involved historical fiction, but what irks me the most is when a historical fiction piece gets a date wrong (without justifying why they changed it, or even bothering to explain it), or a detail wrong (Jurassic World portraying Velociraptors as scary, leathery lizards when the world already knew they were feathered ), why are you even writing historical fiction if you’re just going to half-arse your facts? Please. Stop.
#17: Enjoy the commodities you have, instead of feeling guilty about them. Fully indulge in the good aspects of your life, rather than telling yourself that you should be ‘more reasonable’ and all that other nonsense. Live your life. You did not choose to be born into what you have been born into. If you’re rich out of your mind, enjoy it. If you’re poor but have a good family, but you somehow still manage to feel guilty about it because your mate or whatever has a bad family situation — HALT. Enjoy your good family. All our lives are just a bloody lottery, and sometimes you win some, sometimes you actually lose others. But no one else’s life, or happiness, or mental stability — the list goes on forever here — is your responsibility. The only responsibility you have is your own. I may sound crass or heartless when I say this, but believe me when I say no one else matters. You are your number one priority. Those who need you will come to you, and you can offer help, and care. I don’t mean that the only person you should care about is yourself. I just mean, instead of feeling bad for simply existing and enjoying what you have been given, try to actually live it to its fullest extent. Milk the absolute living Hell out of the good parts of life that you have. You deserve to live, be happy (overrated and overused sentiment), whatever the fuck, as much as everyone else. You are a person, too. No one else is more important than you.
Do not brush aside your feelings to be ‘understanding’ towards others. There is understanding, and there is letting others walk all over you. If someone pisses you off, through inconsiderate actions/words, or any other similar situation, let it be known. Don’t just accept it with a smile. If people are trying to start shit with you, or are making you feel a certain way, don’t just let them get away with it. Being assertive is important, because it is actually extremely essential for your mental health. Do not treat yourself like a doormat. No one, absolutely NO ONE, has the right to put you in such a position, or make you feel that way. Including yourself.
Part 2 might come out soon.